Fast forward

I can't believe that the year is going to be over soon. Although, with all the stuff that has been going on, it's amazing that so little time has actually passed. A lot of insane things have been happening and will probably never be resolved, I'm barely hanging on. I've just been trying to keep my head above water but this has been a tough task and it's scary that I am actually admitting that.

In a nutshell, these are some of the things I've been slammed with:

- multiple racist incidents at work that I will have to endure
- being screwd over by shady people who I have bent over backwards for without one complaint ever
- running meetings where I follow through on what's been decided as a group but then being the one who's reamed for it
- house renovations that have caused extreme distress on me (important documents being misplaced, no place to relax in, having to sleep in the hallway, etc.)
- unsupportive & doubting comments, when it doesn't even concern any of them
- being caught in the middle of peoples' pissing contests (not literally - that'd be so gross)
- people who are upset about the decisions I need to make due to financial reasons (trust me, if I were loaded, everyone and their moms would be a part)
- anxieties that are now causing some intense nightmares